i can’t sleep i am tired but i can’t sleep because i have been having unceasing nightmares since we started imaginal exposure and like my head isn’t safe i know that the world isn’t safe i know that there is nothing nothing nothing and no one safe but i want to feel safe just for a little while is that so hard i wan tto stop fighting if only for a moment.

mostly i just wish prasad was here so i could sob into his shoulder lmao i’m tired of being the strong stoic one with no feelings.