I am so tired of alienating and growing distant from all the people I love. I am so tired of losing all my closest friends (and isn’t it pathetic that my relationships are so fleeting and transitory that someone I met last summer falls under that heading), no matter how they try to reach out and keep hold of me, because I am warped on a fundamental level and incapable of human relationships, human contact.

How could I be when even on my best days I don’t feel human in the slightest?